some things will haunt us forever.

"I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always, 
as long as I'm living 
my baby you'll be."

"I made that up after my wife and I had two babies born dead. The song was my song to my dead babies. For a long time I had it in my head and I couldn't even sing it because every time I tried to sing it I cried. It was very strange having a song in my head that I couldn't sing."

if i am shrinking,

everything else is growing.

i'm working on something.

i always am.

stop staring:

"give me my robe

put on my crown

i have immortal longings in me"

r e p e a t

"william plays harmonica and guitar by the side of the sidewalk

i'd love to stay and steal his melody

'cause he hasn't got an answer to force

no one cares about his voice

no, not a choice

sometimes i wish that nobody loved me"

finally

this time i really have

been gone a long time

a continuation

in my front yard

gentle giants spin in circles

and misplaced thieves are grown and

flourish among their mazes

in my front yard, there are holes

for us to fall into

but maybe the trees can reach down and pick us up, someday

in my front yard

i have found my tree

in my front yard, the somber souls can float above the grass and

we can create masterpieces with our eyes

the lives can move lazily through each other

and if one of them breaks they are made whole

when they are ready to be made whole again

in my front yard

everything is flavored and colored and bright

and there are trains to take us to our homes

and wolves to guard us from ourselves

in my front yard

we are not real

unless we are

because maybe it's better that way

______

I DO NOT NEED ANY MORE BLACK DRESSES FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

chutes and ladders

my haven

does not think of me

because it can't

i made it up and

it does not exist

i do not exist there

it does not breathe outside of its own walls

for me

anymore

the open jar/

the glass vase/

the fire escape/

i do not feel safe

here's to you

and here's to me

and here's to everything being bigger

or smaller

than it seems.

"this has to be the slowest train that i have ever seen"

"why i chose to live in a cave"

"why i could never make up my mind"

"why i failed to feel"

"what i could've done differently"

"why i could slip away so easily"

"what makes this so immemorable"

movies

MOViEs ThAt i liKE BeGinnINg wItH EAch LeTTeR oF tHe AlphABEt ("the" not included)

Alice in Wonderland

Benny and Joon

Clueless

Dead Poets Society***

Edward Scissorhands

Fountain

Gerry

Hook

Iron Giant

Jurassic Park

Koyaanisqatsi

Let the Right One In

Mamma Mia

Nightmare Before Christmas

One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest

Powder

Q - i don't think i like any movies that start with Q

Romy and Michele's High School Reunion

Stay

Toy Story

Umberto D

Vanilla Sky

Wedding Singer

Xanadu

Y Tu Mama Tambien

Zodiac

***which i am watching right now/inspired this list

as you can see i have superb taste in movies,

thank you for your time

criminal

weekend:

"i just watch the tail lights glowing"

iamsolucky.

oaajkdhshahhhh and bansky

AB LAB kicked my ass and i can barely move.

in less painful news, i have been looking at this....

THIS ONE'S MY FAVORITE but it's not here. It's in London:

waiting for

today i can feel the earth spinning

and to me the words "calm down" mean to shut off

"I'm sorry that the last thing I said to you was interpreted as mean." and he opened his mouth to speak

-The muscles in the back of my throat are tense and I cannot speak. I spend my days wishing I could control my tears.-

but instead just crumbled until all that was left was a pile of dirty clothing beneath my feet.